I realised, rather surprisingly

Trying to think of myself as wanting to be a paradox

I remember walking out of Balaji Alt Andheri office, 2016 after rejecting the job cum exposure offered as a legal manager worth days honest job at a peons salary. I walked straight to my drug dealer. Yes sir. That's a story for another day?

Did you know that Arjun transcended and absorbed a lot of knowledge? Facts and wisdom? Most of us who think by reading Krishna, we can be like him, follow him..…We don't know…..and let me emphasize this- WE ARE RATHER THE HAPLESS ARJUN of Mahabharata. Like us, Arjun speaks and reeks of wisdom but didn't live his truth. He was unable to follow what he knew. Krishna bridges a gap in his discourse which is the knowing-doing gap. Krishna is all powerful and a God because he is an application in the point of time when wisdom was omnipresent but not actualization of that wisdom.

The 3 stages of gaining wisdom are -

1. Shravana

2. Manana

3. Nidhidhyasana

Something to think of.

1. A list of all the clubbing I did this month. I now have 700+ followers on clubhouse💥 I consider a beginning

2. https://www.theparisreview.org/letters-essays/7564/perfection-sarah-manguso

3. A heaven of free movies and Shows… I recommend a lot from TUBI

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I feel that in between reading books which seem like my alter ego wrote it to dissecting discussions for my audience on clubhouse, I grow like my boil.

A boil can be shameless. What does it take for a boil to grow in a place it isn't supposed to, I don't know. But I feel like a boil at times.

A boil requires special duration of attention, it requires application of ointment and it requires attention for a duration which could have been an attention span of more than a fly's.

A boil is basically a growth which can also become a benign tumor. It is a creep which always stalked you before killing you. In that sense, I feel like my emotions, my thoughts, the overload of knowledge in me sometimes overtakes the impulse to heal myself through my art of writing.

There used to be a small window in my room in our first old house which started off as our home, then after we outgrew it, a family stayed seeking refuge and then it got occupied in time by a help of an Officer in the CMO. I used to see a bootleggers house and 5 shops, a doctor's clinic and a presswallah through one of the windows, if the panes were turned right. If I looked up from my books, I could learn just about everything I needed to for the town I inhabited.

Then when we moved to a larger space. It has it's own charm. All that the previous space lacked. Except there's not much space left. Books inhabit corners and bed chambers. You will find a garden where I know I can inhabit indefinitely. And have lemonades or Rooh Afza and listen to Song for the asking on nights where I can hear whirring of ACs and urge to browse Apps while I walk at 3AM with a Shin Ramyun cooking at a low flame.

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Pity the nation that is full of beliefs and empty of religion.

Pity the nation that wears a cloth it does not weave, eats a bread it does not harvest, and drinks a wine that flows not from its own wine-press.

Pity the nation that acclaims the bully as hero, and that deems the glittering conqueror bountiful.

Pity the nation that despises a passion in its dream, yet submits in its awakening.

Pity the nation that raises not its voice save when it walks in a funeral, boasts not except among its ruins, and will rebel not save when its neck is laid between the sword and the block.

Pity the nation whose stateman is a fox, whose philosopher is a juggler, and whose art is the art of patching and mimicking.

Pity the nation that welcomes its new ruler with trumpetings, and farewells him with hootings, only to welcome another with trumpetings again.

Pity the nation whose sages are dumb with years and whose strong men are yet in the cradle.

Pity the nation divided into fragments, each fragment deeming itself a nation.

-- Khalil Gibranr, fom The Garden of the Prophet

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1. I have a list of 5 📕 Recs which you need to check out if you haven't already (psst… I bet you haven't read them yet!)

2. I have curated an excellent list of movies which are stranger than fiction, weirdest and most entertaining

3. I love Maps. Hand drawn are Orgasmic to say the least. I love cartographers and I really loved Sagar's Maps which are gaining popularity over Reddit. I spot Maps everywhere and I love the patience with which a cartographer hones territories and draws boundaries. Do check out and support cartographers, they are dying in a sea of Mass printing and commercialization. As an artist myself, I wish to earn enough to be able to support independent artists.

4. I recently discovered a community for networking that was purely accidental and not a product of endless hours on clubhouse, cracking voices - Ryze (Heard of it?!?) I have zero patience to make a profile on this one

5. This Audio website which most won't ever know of+ A true crime haven for disturbed souls like me

6. These 12 famous Museums bless us static souls with virtual tours which You Can Take From Your Couch

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Don't forget to stay put and wear masks. ❤

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